False Memories Strange Memories Unpleasant Memories and Amnesia

Esther’s writing prompt: February 18 : Memories

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Image showing a disintegrating brain.
I had what is called post traumatic amnesia, which fortunately is temporary. Shutterstock ID: 1685660680 by MattL_Images

I have false memories, memories of things I know never happened. Not too long ago I made a post on my other blog about false memories and collective false memories, referred to as the Mandela Effect. You can read about that here. In addition to false memories I have memories that are strange, but that I know happened. I also have gaps, or holes in my memory. Memories that are lost to amnesia.

It all goes back to a ski accident that I had at the age of 22. We were a group of youngsters who rented a bus and drove from Sweden to Garmisch-Partenkirchen in Bavaria in Germany. Garmisch-Partenkirchen is a beautiful Bavarian town, and it is one of the most famous German ski resorts. Zugspitze, Germany’s highest mountain is nearby Garmisch-Partenkirchen providing for an impressive scenery.

Mountains in the background. The town of Garmisch-Partenkirchen in the foreground.
The town of Garmisch-Partenkirchen. Photo by op23 on Pexels.com

I love skiing and I challenged myself by skiing fast and selecting difficult slopes but on one of the days I made a very bad decision. I have no memories of what follows in this paragraph. It is what I have been told. There was a steep double black diamond slope with a sign stating that the conditions were dangerous and not to go down this slope. I did it anyway, and I fell badly, hit my head (I had no helmet), and I got a severe shoulder displacement. My arm was hanging on my back. I went looking for my skis and I tried to put them back on to continue skiing, but some Germans came down to stop me.

An ambulance was called, and they sent snowmobiles to pick me up. However, the snowmobiles were unable to get there, so they used a pist-machine to pick me up instead. On the way down I discovered my shoulder displacement several times. I was equally shocked every time. That’s how they knew that my short term memory was gone. I also had no pain sensation.

Photo of Zugspitze.
Zugspitze Germany’s highest mountain. Photo by Oskar Gross on Pexels.com
Me standing in the ski slope in Breckenridge leaning on a sign that says “Caution”
This is me in the ski slope when I was young. This is not Garmisch-Partenkirchen, it is Breckenridge, Colorado, but I don’t have any photos of Garmisch-Partenkirchen.

Amnesia

The next few days after the accident I suffered from amnesia. I did not remember where I was or my friends. I should say I still remembered my name. The first 2-3 days after the accident are essentially gone. However, I remember my friends coming into my room asking me questions such as “what’s my name?”, “do you remember me?”, “do you know where we are?”. The leader of the trip was devastated, and she was allegedly crying all day. You can say that I ruined the trip for everyone.

False Memories

On the way down to Germany, at the German border we changed out our studded tires because studded tires are not allowed on the autobahn. As my memories started to return on the third day after the accident my friends asked me what happened at the German border. I told them that we had studded tires (that part was correct) and that we all took pliers and removed the studs (that part was false). The funny thing is, to this day I remember us walking around the bus with pliers and removing studs. However, I know this never happened. How did that false memory get implanted in my head?

Strange Memories

I also have some strange memories from that trip that according to my friends happened. We stayed at a youth hostel. It was nice but it had a strange feature. There were loudspeakers in all the hallways. At 10:00PM on our first evening at the youth hostel the loudspeakers came on and someone started shouting in German “Achtung! Achtung! All guests must now wash their faces and brush their teeth and the lights started dimming and women and men had to go to their quarters. Music is forbidden. The loudspeaker came on every now and then barking orders at us in German and all windows and doors were locked electronically. Being from Sweden we followed orders, but we were laughing about it.

Suddenly new voices started shouting in the loudspeaker. It was younger sounding voices. It was still in German but this time we were told to rebel against the hotel management, we were told to refuse to go to bed, and they started singing fighting songs in German. Then, suddenly the loudspeakers went quiet. The hotel management was back. We all had to go to bed. It sounds like a false memory, but this one is real. Well, it was budget lodging after all.

Unpleasant Memories of Statistical Mechanics

Ludwig Boltzmann, who spent much of his life studying statistical mechanics, died in 1906, by his own hand. Paul Ehrenfest, carrying on the work, died similarly in 1933. Now it is our turn to study statistical mechanics.
The epic opening of the first paragraph in David L. Goodstein’s States of Matter, a textbook on Statistical Mechanics.

The epic opening above from the textbook says : Ludwig Boltzmann, who spent much of his life studying statistical mechanics, died in 1906, by his own hand. Paul Ehrenfest, carrying on the work, died similarly in 1933. Now it is our turn to study statistical mechanics.

One day I found a book on Statistical Mechanics under my bed, and some very unpleasant memories came back to me. I had a final exam in Statistical Mechanics after our vacation. Statistical mechanics is a mathematical framework that applies statistical methods and probability theory to large assemblies of microscopic entities.

More specifically, you do statistical calculations over large sets of atoms and molecules to figure out the macro condition of the corresponding gas or material. For example, temperature corresponds to the average kinetic energy of atoms, and entropy refers to the logarithm of the number of microstates compatible with the system’s measurable macroscopic state, often loosely referred to as the disorder of the system. Statistical Mechanics includes classical Statistical Mechanics as well as its Quantum Mechanical counterpart, which is a lot more abstract and complicated.

Picture showing molecules of various sizes moving fast.
In 1905 Albert Einstein proved the existence of molecules and atoms using statistics and an observed phenomenon called Brownian motion. Shutterstock ID: 2334052703

Once I was back in Sweden, I went to see my professor, and I explained the situation to him: “hello professor, I had a ski accident, hit my head, and I lost my memory. My amnesia made me forget statistical mechanics.”. He could also see that my left arm was in a cast. I said, “could I take the exam a little later?” He asked me “are you right-handed or left-handed?” I said, “I am right-handed”. The professor answered, “well then you take the exam on time like everybody else”. It wasn’t what I wanted to hear but I took it, and I passed but not with flying colors.

It may seem like my professor was a bit harsh. However, I was later thinking that maybe he had a lot of students coming into his office claiming head injuries with amnesia. It was after all a final exam in statistical mechanics.

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Becoming a First-Time Leonberger Owner

Our Leonberger puppy is wearing a red scarf and looking straight into the camera.
Our Leonberger Le Bronco von der Löwenhöhle (Bronco for short) at the age of three months.
Our Leonberger Bronco is standing on our leather sofa and he is giving me a hug.
Me Thomas Wikman with our Leonberger Bronco when he was about one years old.
An old looking Leonberger lying in the grass and looking into the camera.
Our Leonberger Bronco soon to be 13 years old. Leonbergers are large dogs and don’t live as long as small dogs. The typically live 8 to 10 years. However, our Bronco reached the age of 13. He was loving, protective, and brave. The small dogs loved him.

This is a guest post written by Ryan Goodchild. He emailed me asking me if he could publish this post regarding becoming a first time Leonberger Owner . I said yes. See his post below.


Becoming a First-Time Leonberger Owner: What You Need to Know

Owning a Leonberger isn’t just about bringing home a dog—it’s about welcoming a gentle, giant-hearted companion whose loyalty and calm strength will shape your days for years to come. These majestic dogs, known for their intelligence and deep affection, can be both a joy and a challenge for first-time pet owners. This guide will help you understand what to expect and how to set yourself—and your Leonberger—up for success.

Ten Leonberger puppies sitting on a sofa. They are brown with black face masks. An adult Leonberger is lying in front of them.
Ten Leonberger puppies with mama. Shutterstock-ID: 561107650 by Akbudak Rimma.
Six Leonbergers with celebration hats are looking straight into the camera.
Six Leonbergers celebrating a birthday celebration. Photo by Jen O’Keefe.

Quick Essentials This Article Looks At

  • Leonbergers are massive—males can exceed 170 pounds; space and structure are non-negotiable.
  • Early socialization and consistent training are critical to keep their size from becoming a liability.
  • Expect heavy shedding, especially during seasonal “blowouts.”
  • They thrive on human interaction and suffer if left alone for long periods.
  • Regular vet care, high-quality food, and joint supplements can prevent costly long-term health issues.
Big fluffy Leonberger sitting in the grass on a hill.
Mature big Leonberger Stock Photo ID:731020957  by Peter Josto.

Understanding the Leonberger Temperament

Leonbergers are affectionate, patient, and famously good with children. Originally bred as family and working companions, they balance strength with serenity. However, their intelligence means they need mental stimulation and clear boundaries; without it, boredom can lead to destructive behavior.

A Few Core Traits to Remember:
  • Gentle yet strong: They rarely display aggression but need confident leadership.
  • Social by nature: Isolation leads to stress and behavioral issues.
  • Sensitive to tone: Harsh correction will break trust—positive reinforcement works best.
The photo shows our mini-Australian Shepherd biting Bronco’s tail and pulling on it as Bronco is trying to ignore him.
Our rambunctious Rollo mini-Australian Shepherd is biting Bronco’s tail. One time Rollo swung in his tail as if it was a swing. Bronco was very patient.

Health and Nutrition at a Glance

Leonbergers grow rapidly and live, on average, 8–9 years. Their size makes them prone to joint, heart, and bone issues, so proactive care is crucial.

Here’s a snapshot of what to focus on:

ConcernWhat to WatchPreventive Actions
Hip & Elbow DysplasiaLimping, stiffnessKeep weight balanced, feed joint-support diets
Bloat (Gastric Torsion)Restlessness, distended bellyFeed smaller meals, avoid heavy exercise after eating
Heart ConditionsFatigue, coughingAnnual cardiac exams
Cancer (esp. bone)Sudden lameness or painRegular vet visits and early screening
Photo of a Leonberger standing in the snow. There is a wintry forest in the background.
A healthy Leonberger. Shutter Stock Photo ID:705193912 by Anna Krivitskaya.

Creating a Home That Fits a Leonberger

A small apartment won’t do—Leonbergers need space to stretch, play, and move freely. A secure, fenced yard is ideal. Indoors, they’ll happily curl up near you, but their size means you’ll need to Leonberger-proof your space.

How to Prepare Your Home:
  • Create a soft resting area to protect joints.
  • Secure gates and doors—they can easily push through flimsy barriers.
  • Keep breakables out of tail range.
  • Use large, non-slip bowls for food and water.
A big Leonberger splayed across a big wide red leather sofa.
Our Leonberger Bronco sleeping on our big red leather sofa.

Grooming and Maintenance: Managing the “Fur-nado”

Leonbergers have a double coat that requires regular maintenance. Weekly brushing helps, but during shedding season, daily sessions are best. Baths every 6–8 weeks will keep their coat clean and odor-free.

Grooming Checklist

Before shedding season hits, stock up on these essentials:

  • Undercoat rake and slicker brush
  • High-velocity dryer (optional but effective)
  • Gentle dog shampoo and conditioner
  • Nail clippers and ear-cleaning solution

Keeping up with grooming not only reduces hair around the house but also strengthens your bond with your dog.

A pretty dark-haired Caucasian girl in a plaid shirt hugs her cute Leonberger dog. The concept is friendship and loyalty.
A woman and her Leonberger dog. Asset id: 1741753382 by Elena Podrezenko

How to Keep Your Pet Records Organized

First-time owners often underestimate the amount of documentation involved—vaccination records, microchip details, adoption papers, and vet receipts. To make things easier, convert documents to PDF and store them digitally.

Using a reliable online tool lets you organize every file in one place, ensuring quick access during vet visits or emergencies.

Creating a labeled folder for your Leonberger’s records—medical, training, and nutrition—will save time and prevent misplaced paperwork later.

Training Your Leonberger: Building a Confident Giant

Leonbergers are highly trainable but easily bored by repetition. Their size makes obedience a must—start early, keep sessions short, and make them engaging. Reward-based methods build trust faster than dominance-based tactics.

Quick Training Guide:

  • Start with basics: Sit, stay, come, down.
  • Socialize early: Introduce new sights, people, and other pets gradually.
  • Teach calm leash behavior: Their strength can easily overwhelm a novice handler.
  • Practice recall: A reliable recall can prevent accidents.

Leonbergers are eager to please and thrive when training feels like teamwork rather than command and control.

The First-Year Readiness Checklist

Owning a Leonberger for the first time is as rewarding as it is demanding. Before bringing one home, make sure you can check most of these boxes:

How-To Checklist: Your First-Year Essentials
  • Register with a trusted veterinarian
  • Choose a large-breed-specific diet and feeding schedule
  • Create a grooming calendar and stick to it
  • Enroll in an obedience or puppy class
  • Invest in sturdy leashes, harnesses, and feeding equipment
  • Begin socialization within the first 3 months
  • Keep vaccination and health records digitally organized
The photo shows a young blond woman running with a Leonberger in a leash. There are tents and other people in the background.
RONNEBY, SWEDEN – JULY 05, 2014: Blekinge Kennelklubb international dog show. A Leonberger dog and a female handler running in a show ring. Asset id: 204221011 by Imfoto

“Big-Paw” Questions: FAQ for Future Leonberger Owners

Here are some of the most common concerns new owners have—answered clearly and concisely.

The New Owner’s FAQ: “From Puppy to Gentle Giant”

1. How much exercise does a Leonberger need?
At least an hour a day of moderate activity is ideal. Puppies should avoid high-impact exercise until growth plates close (around 18 months) to protect joints.

2. Are Leonbergers good with other pets?
Yes. They’re naturally tolerant, but early introductions and supervised interactions are important, especially with smaller animals they could accidentally knock over.

3. How expensive are they to maintain?
Expect higher costs than smaller breeds. Quality food, grooming, and vet care can average $2,000–$3,000 annually—not including emergencies or travel crates.

4. Do they drool?
Some do, especially after drinking water. Keep absorbent towels handy near their bowls or favorite resting spots.

5. What should I look for in a breeder or adoption center?
Choose one that conducts health testing for hips, eyes, and heart, and offers transparency about lineage. Ethical breeders prioritize temperament and health over appearance.

6. Can Leonbergers live in warm climates?
Yes, but with precautions—limit outdoor activity in high heat, provide ample shade and water, and avoid midday walks.

Building a Lifelong Bond

Becoming a Leonberger owner means embracing responsibility and reward in equal measure. These dogs will fill your home with love, hair, and joy—often in that order. Plan carefully, train consistently, and nurture their gentle nature with patience and respect. The more you invest in understanding your Leonberger, the more they’ll return in loyalty and affection that few breeds can match.

Whether this is your first pet or your first giant breed, remember: structure and affection go hand-in-hand. With preparation and heart, your Leonberger won’t just live with you—they’ll thrive because of you.

Five Leonbergers wearing patriotic hats lying on grass by a lake.
This photo was provided by Jen O’Keefe, Urgent Animal Care of Arlington. From left to right; Obi, Delfi, Aslan, Gryphon, Digory.

Snow and Ice in Norrland

Esther’s writing prompt: January 7, 2026: Snow

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I grew up in northern Sweden (Norrland), which means that I saw a lot of snow. I loved playing in the snow, building snow castles, snow tunnels, throwing snowballs, building snowmen, going sledding and going cross country skiing. I don’t remember being cold. I had warm clothes on, and I often stayed out very late playing in the snow. Now I live in Texas where snow is very rare.

Winter landscape at sunset in direct light with plenty of snow on the trees, Gällivare county, Swedish Lapland, Sweden
Snow on the trees, Gällivare county, Swedish Lapland, Sweden Shutterstock Asset id: 2035482680 by Mats Lindberg
Female cross country skier walking through heavy snow in a wild pine forest at night.
Cross country skiing in Sweden Shutterstock Asset id: 1888204651 by Henrik A. Jonsson

Later in life, maybe at the age of 12-13 I also started doing downhill skiing / slalom. We had four ski resorts close to my hometown Örnköldsvik. I can add that the snow packed northern forests can be very beautiful. Northern Sweden is also a very dark place in winter, being close to or above the arctic circle. Therefore, I also watched some spectacular night skies and auroras from my snow castles. The Milky Way and even the Andromeda Galaxy were visible. One time as I was sitting in the snow, I saw a very large meteor moving across the sky. It had a tail of fire and was not moving too fast. I believe I could see the piece of rock, but I am not sure. In any case, it put up a show.

Stars in the sky. Blue night panorama, a universe full of stars, nebula and galaxies.
Milky way sky on dark background, and a lot of stars. Spectacular night sky in the polar winter. Asset id: 2524020369 by MR.PRAWET THADTHIAM
Stunning aurora borealis lights up the night sky with vibrant colors, creating a mesmerizing natural display in the Arctic wilderness.
Aurora Borealis are often spectacular in the polar regions, especially during the polar night. Asset id: 2499746583 by HappyVibeArt

Unfortunately, according to my brother, this winter my hometown Örnsköldsvik did not have snow for Christmas. According to Science Daily the data from weather stations in northern Sweden indicates that the snow season has decreased by over two months in a 30-year span and according to the National Library of Medicine the cold season in northern Finland (next doors) has gotten warmer with reduced snow cover. This is quite noticeable and the reindeer are suffering as a result.

Visiting the Ice Hotel in Jukkasjärvi

Luckily the ice hotel in Jukkasjärvi nearby Kiruna in northern Sweden is still open since December 12, 2025. The ice hotel in Jukkasjärvi opened the first in 1989 and it is the first and largest ice hotel in the world.

I should say that Jukkasjärvi is located north of the arctic circle and is typically very cold in winter. However, you sleep in very warm sleeping bags on top of ice blocks covered by reindeer hides. The ice hotel itself does not have any bathroom, but they have an adjacent wood building with bathrooms and showers. They also have rooms for people who don’t want to sleep in a cold ice room. We visited the ice hotel in Jukkasjärvi as a family in 2004 and I took a lot of photos.

Photo is of a large ice table and ice chairs located in the middle of the lobby, which is filled with tall pillars made of ice.
The lobby of the ice hotel. Our kids are sitting around a table of ice. A chandelier of ice is hanging above the table. The light is from fiber optics, so the ice won’t melt.
Again, the photo is of a large ice table and ice chairs located in the middle of the lobby, which is filled with tall pillars made of ice. In this photo there are no kids except for the faint figure behind one of the ice pillars.
Another photo of the lobby at the ice hotel. My son David is barely visible behind one of the ice pillars.
The photo shows a big hallway with large ice pillars and an ice statue of a man.
One of the beautiful hallways in the Ice Hotel.
Photo of a beautiful table made of ice and two sofa chairs and one sofa, all made of ice.
My oldest son sitting at an ice table in the lobby.
The photo shows an entrance looking like a bottle and there are several pillars and statues made of ice.
Entrance to the ice bar where you could food and drink and sit on ice chairs by ice tables.
Photo of my wife with our three children standing in front of the ice bar where two servers are standing. Everyone is holding glasses made of ice filled with juice.
We started the evening with a visit to the ice restaurant and bar. Everything in the ice restaurant was made of ice, the tables, the chairs, the counter, the glasses, the plates, and the art.
The photo show rectangular ice glasses standing on an ice counter. They are filled with differently colored drinks.
Close up of ice glasses on the ice counter in the ice bar.
A photo of an ice table and 7 instruments made of ice standing on an ice stage.
This is a photo of the ice instruments standing on the ice stage.
Photo of a beautiful cello and guitar sculpted in ice.
A close up of an ice cello and an ice guitar.
The photo shows elaborately sculpted parts of a organ all in ice.
This is a portion of an ice organ in the ice bar.
My dad Stig and his girlfriend Ulla came with us on the trip.
We are all laying on top of our ice bed. We are inside our sleeping bags except my head and part of my body is out of the bag.
We are going to bed in our room. I think it was my wife Claudia who took the photo.
A long white icy hallway in the darkness.
This was the hallway where our room was located.
My wife is sitting at the end of the sled and in front of her are the kids. Everyone is bundled up.
We are going on a dogsled tour. The ice theater is in the background, and you can see part of the ice hotel on the right.
You can see ten dogs and the sled with us on top of it. On the left is a kåta, a movable Sami structure (indigenous arctic Scandinavian people). It is similar to a Tipi.
The kids had a lot of fun during the dogsled tour
The photos show a dogsled with dogs and some people. The kåta on the left is pretty prominent in this photo.
On the left is a kåta, a movable Sami structure (indigenous arctic Scandinavian people).
This is the ice theater. It was located next to the ice hotel (not in the picture).

The ice hotel had put out lots of kick sleds, referred to as “spark” for people to use as a mode of transportation on the snow and ice, or just to sit on. As my dad, Stig, was sitting on one of them, our son came up to him and told him “Stig the hotel put out these sleds for children to play with. It is not for adults to sit on.” My dad was so surprised that he just handed him the sled.

He is standing and kicking with his feet to move forward with the sled. He is passing in front of the ice theater.
Our son David with one of the kick sleds called “spark”.
Photo of men with a machine cutting ice blocks.
They got the ice blocks for the structure and for the art from nearby Torneå river.

The next day I took photos of some other rooms

There is a huge ice and snow decoration on the wall featuring an angry looking face.
Another room with a snowy wall decoration.
A close up of an elaborate ice bed.
Some of the rooms were really beautiful.
An ice room with an ice motorcycle and other ice art.
Some of the rooms had beautiful ice art.
A very large ice bedroom.
You had to pay more for a big room. You paid the price of Hilton and got the comfort of camping in winter.
An ice bedroom with an ice statue of a moose.
More ice art.